WHAT I’VE DISCOVERED [ABOUT MYSELF]

Sunday, October 6, 2019

Hi, I’m an introvert and these are my confessions:

💭I’m addicted to women that objectify themselves for money. But not in the way that you’d think. I’m drawn to severely damaged people, like me. I try to fix them, I try to save them, and I desperately try to help them out of the situation they’re in.

This always puts me into precarious situations that I’d rather not be in. It’s rather self—depreciating and thought consuming behavior that always does more damage than good. I do not like myself when I’m behaving like this either. Many people have taken advantage of this weakness.

I deserve better than sacrificing my happiness just to save someone that isn’t worth my time & attention, when I could be using this time & attention tending to my own life & doing what’s good for me. But instead I’m fanatically giving them the best of me that they don’t deserve.

I’ve put my entire life on hold for other people who “need” my help, yet refuse to pay me for my time. I’ve sacrificed years of my life in order to learn what I now know and to get where I am today, and I expect to be paid handsomely for all of my years of experience and education.

I’m past the point of caring what other people think about my qualifications. Their thoughts are their own limitations and their opinions are mere projections, and the last I checked— a hologram isn’t real. I seek substantiality and structure in my life and won’t stop until then.